Tuesday, June 28, 2011

my reason to live

As a youth leader there are so many diffrent ways I can express the way my youth group at my Church makes me feel, but we would be here all day if I had to tell you that and how much they all mean to me. In diffrent ways they have touched parts of my heart I thought was out of reached. I never knew someone can love me in return the way that they have. I never known that I can share my love with so many diffrent special ones. I never sat and thought about this until now. I work in education during the week, a youth leader weekend but really full time, and a mom 24- 7. I am in contact with well over 1, 000 kids on a daily.
When parents have multi birth of twins, triplects ect the mom thinks o Lord how can I love them all, do I have enough love in me to pour out to each of them the same? The answer is yes, I may not be their mother, they are not with me 24-7 other than my loving Son but as there spirtual mom it's all the same. When am not with them am thinking of them, when I pray it's them I lift up, when I worry I worry if they are ok, what are they doing , are they sad right now? I worry about them as if they were my very own children and during the summer I miss my school kids alot. Am always telling my husband I miss my babies and the truth it if I can have them all live with me I would.  I love being a youth leader, a deaf Ed interpreter and most of all a Mother. Kids are my link to God, I see them as my stairs to heaven I was born to worship God and make his name known through the lives of young people. I also think God has laid this before me because Just maybe he will bless me with Twin healthy baby girls Madison and Morgan. Hey he is my father right? he is King right? So there is nothing I can't have.